| career? what's that? |
[Sep. 22nd, 2008|11:37 am] |
Sitting around with Knuckle, drinking way too much coffee, listening to pandora.com, and writing shit...is there a way I can make this into a career and make any money whatsoever? Hmmm...
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[Jul. 21st, 2008|04:40 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | work. | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | hatin' | ] |
today, like most days, i left half my brain elsewhere. it's only a nuisance when it is here, because it won't shut up about all the things it would rather be doing.
...is there such a thing as existential claustrophobia? i think i'm coming down with a pretty bad case. |
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| mutany |
[Apr. 23rd, 2008|01:58 pm] |
I'm going slightly nuts working at Blandford. Ever since I was hired, we have been experiencing a "budget issue" (meaning we are broke as shit). I know that makes everything we do much more difficult, but I think our worst enemy is ourselves. If I have to come into work to this gloomy apathetic disease every day for the rest of the year, I might not make it out alive. Every effort we try to make to move forward encounters this annoyingly conservative backlash. I'm fricken done with it and am about ready to bash some skulls...
In happier news, I am starting a vegetable garden this summer! Come by and visit and eat veggies with me. It will be more fun than a fork in the eye. |
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| Prehistoric Poop |
[Aug. 22nd, 2007|12:17 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "the salmon dance"- chemical bros | ] |
I went home for my best friend's wedding this past weekend and so inevitably began thinking about the past. It's funny how some memories are triggered by the weirdest things...take TresEmme shampoo for instance. For the longest time, the smell of this shampoo, which was associated with a particular bundle of past memories, was so revolting it made me want to vomit.
I also stumble upon pieces of the past which, much like petrified poop, still exist...I am very much aware they are poop, but over time they've lost their stink. I guess it's these pieces of petrified pain and anger which form who I am today and remind me never to step in the same shit twice. |
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| Tickle me Emo |
[Jul. 23rd, 2007|12:21 pm] |
I'm not sure I totally agree with this, but the comparison gives me a sick sort of pleasure anyhow...
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| Melancholia |
[Jun. 21st, 2007|10:18 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | like tuesday morning vomit | ] |
| [ | music |
| | cat wimperings | ] |
The damn cat is in heat, so I've locked myself in the computer room to avoid the non-stop attacking...there's only so much vaginal display I can handle in one day. Some of you may not agree, but no more vagina, PLEASE!
I've also spent the last few days trying to put together a decent resume, reading strategies on job searching, and trying to find job openings...now I've lulled myself into a career-less depression and thought maybe I'd write and see if that made me feel as if I'm somehow worth something somewhere, if only in my own head.
Blah. If anyone hears about a job opening, please let me know, because Parkway Tropics is looking like a pretty damn good option right about now. |
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| Filing for Divorce...or Graduation...same thing. |
[Apr. 12th, 2007|11:43 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | german paper hell | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | bruised and borrowed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | jamiroquai- "virtual insanity" | ] |
I'm going to divorce gvsu in a few short weeks. I can't take this relationship anymore. I'm drained...It's always take, take, take nowadays with no return. So I think it's about time we split...I'm sure both of us will be much happier in our separate paths. Take care GVSU, I don't regret the good times we had, you were often pretty great...BUT I'M OUT, BIOTCH! I've got new institutions to love and leave.
P.S. Ryan and I should be moved into our new place by the end of the month. I think this may call for a housewarming shindig of semi-massive proportions. I will keep all y'all updated. |
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| Angry Fluids |
[Mar. 22nd, 2007|10:47 am] |
| [ | music |
| | pantera- "good friends and a bottle of pills" | ] |
I HATE BEING SICK! Stop the mucus!
Okay, back to dying on the couch...
Hope all the rest of you find ways to avoid "Contagion Mulder." |
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| Arcosanti |
[Mar. 8th, 2007|11:24 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Jerome, AZ | ] |
| [ | music |
| | primus-"shake hands with beef" | ] |
My brother and I went to Arcosanti today ( http://www.arcosanti.org )...incredibly interesting! Check out the page for more info, but here's a quick description from the webpage:
"In 1970, the Cosanti Foundation began building Arcosanti, an experimental town in the high desert of Arizona, 70 miles north of metropolitan Phoenix. When complete, Arcosanti will house 5000 people, demonstrating ways to improve urban conditions and lessen our destructive impact on the earth. Its large, compact structures and large-scale solar greenhouses will occupy only 25 acres of a 4060 acre land preserve, keeping the natural countryside in close proximity to urban dwellers.
Early Construction of the VaultsArcosanti is designed according to the concept of arcology (architecture + ecology), developed by Italian architect Paolo Soleri. In an arcology, the built and the living interact as organs would in a highly evolved being. This means many systems work together, with efficient circulation of people and resources, multi-use buildings, and solar orientation for lighting, heating and cooling..."
 So, another awesome day in AZ. ...I saw pretty much every climate in Northern Arizona in one day...scrub-land, desert-like areas to up in the mountains where there was still snow on the ground. Insane. |
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| I'm not leaving Arizona... |
[Mar. 7th, 2007|02:49 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Jerome, AZ | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | content and fascinated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | fata morgana-"the way we are" | ] |
This is my 5th day in AZ (visiting my sister and brother)and I'm already addicted again. Jerome is insanely laid back and everyone instantly feels like family. I went to one of the two bars in town Saturday night and met everyone in the bar...all locals. I've never been to a more intimate bar.
The sun has also been a nice change...it's been about 65-70 degrees every day and SUNNY like a motherfucker! I'm not leaving...EVER.
On Sunday we went to see Tim Alexander's (drummer from Primus)side project play (Fata Morgana- http://www.myspace.com/fatamusic ) in Phoenix as my sister's fiance was doing guitar tech for him. Reminds me of early 90s grunge rock...pretty fun stuff. Tim Alexander actually plays guitar and sings instead of drumming...interesting.
Monday night was an art walk in Jerome, and I had a chance to see some glass-blowing by one of the local artists. I'm fascinated!!
No Maynard sightings. But I've met at least 2 of his ex's. They seem to be everywhere in this town...that damn promiscuous bastard. ;)
Thursday my brother and I are headed to Arcosanti, a self-sufficient "green" community which makes clay and copper bells as a means of making money. Other than that, they create and live as a separate, sufficient community. Should be interesting. Kevin Cole would be impressed. ;)
That's my visit to AZ so far...I love it here and am tempted to never come back home... |
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| Renewal |
[Feb. 28th, 2007|02:46 am] |
| [ | music |
| | amon tobin- "bloodstone" | ] |
Been a while since I posted, and I'm avoiding finishing a paper, so here goes...
Renewal has been the general theme to my life lately...produced by some needed alone time to reflect and deal with things that were too close to see before. Things were beginning to stagnate into dis-appreciation. I feel more grounded and in control than I have in at least a year. I'm in a new mode. Funny how spending some time alone thinking about yourself makes you less selfish...time to think without the pollution of judgment or defense, I suppose.
The next step after graduating is also pretty open...more change and renewal...and stress. I'm thinking of maybe being a professional bum, or joining the circus...maybe think myself a stash of money and a life of luxury. I certainly won't have any besides the hallucinatory kind...
Anywho, life is doing it's thing and I'm doing mine and they seem to coincide pretty decently right now...hopefully I can keep it that way. |
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| Moldy Brains |
[Dec. 19th, 2006|07:16 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | the ROC | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the washing machine | ] |
So I'm back in the OC (Rochester...). So far I've avoided venturing out into the concrete wasteland, but know it's inevitable. It is nice to be away from all obligations and responsibilities, however, and I've been thoroughly celebrating that by sitting around eating, sleeping, and generally ignoring the pressures of time.
Better go enjoy it while it lasts... |
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